I'm getting kind of concerned. I am still extremely sedated. Driving to the clinic for my appt. with Dr. B. was not pleasant. I'm a very careful driver and I don't have a history of falling asleep while driving. But today my eyes kept closing and I was fighting to sit up and be awake.
During the session I was also fighting sleep. At one point I had my eyes open, but was dreaming at the same time. I keep dropping things because my coordination is off. Dr. B. said I need to use a kind of CBT technique to choose a different perspective about the stuff with Mary. I told him that I very much want to, but that the hurt and betrayal I'm feeling is monumental. Being flexible just is not happening, even though I want it to.
The heat is vicious.