The news is so scary. My state is ok. But we are up for an election in November and there are some super scary people running and their commercials are just appaling I want to throw the remote at the TV every time one comes on. I am so grateful to have had my surgeries and to have had a smooth transiton but I know so many trans men in the country are struggling and panicking right now. My next step is to change my legal name and gender. My mom and I agree we should legit act fast on this so we will call her lawyer on Monday and light a fire under his *** to help us out. I know my mom will help me out with whatever finances I need but I don't think its that much and I do have savings bonds from my grandparents I can use.

My old man has probably been rolling nonstop in his grave since 2015

My new med is getting rid of my stomach pain but its making me a bit lightheaded and headachy. Although I have only eaten grapes since 2PM yesterday since its making me not hungry either. I don't get how I'll be able to take it 4 times a day with food when I don't ever eat 4 times a day. Idk. I'll have to figure it out somehow.

My new med is making me feel super weird right now I don't even know how to begin to explain what I'm feeling. Like the room is spinning and my vision is weird and I feel all nervous and like I'm going to lose control. Should I be worried?

I guess I just had a panic attack. Probably because of the news and the lack of food and I am planning on going to a huge BBQ where I will be seeing a lot of family members some I havent seen in 3 years. I know they are all accepting but its just been a lot today. Plus the new med is making me feel kinda funky