Greetings, Welcome to my email about my personal issue. My issue is bereavement however I am not sure if I am a freak or what. I have lost people and I somehow move on. Mostly, the shock is part of the shock that death happened and that I could be subjected to the same rash process. But, there is more to it, surely. Not until you lose somebody who is a core member, in my case.

I wonder if I have suffered a break from reality. I accepted he is dead. Then I didn't accept it. I thought well maybe it is the after life which I am very critical of. This is the part of my emotional existence which is not very complex that is giving me the initial feeling. I pursue it and find myself back in the real world.

I think, hell, I can prepay for the people who are still living by pre-grieving their deaths. If dying is no big deal then it can be easy to be prepared for those who are actively agitating to leave me. Like if my wife wants to leave me, I can pre-grieve losing her. Isn't that what loss is?

Does anybody have that experience?