Pretty sure I'm special to my T, in that I'm a very unusual client. He wasn't even sure if he could work with me in the beginning (though he made way less of a mess of his insicurity that my xT did). Now he's kind of enjoying the challenge, I think. Ego is a big part of that, I'm assuming.

I like him, but I want to get better and I want to leave him some day, once this has been achieved to a sufficient degree. Not everyone craves attachment that much... though granted, I am appreciating having someone in my life who knows all there is to know about me and who for some reason still doesn't leave.
So perhaps in time, I'll get so attached that I won't want to get better? I doubt it though. Violent fantasies aren't very life affirming or competible with anything.