I decided abruptly today was the day. I told him I want to divorce. He was angry and wanted to tell the kids immediately, I think believing they would be upset and try to talk me out of it. Of course that’s not what happened. My son even told him he probably won’t talk to him anymore (he lives out of the house).

I’ve been crying off and on all day. It’s right for me and my child, but obviously sad and will be difficult ahead. Husband bought weed, and junk food and has been binge watching tv since.

I checked in with him awhile ago, and he said he loves me with all his heart, and wants to make it work. But asking how…he just says his normal stuff…and I said it clarifies that he is interested in other things and not the relationship and having a healthy dynamic. He says oh what you’re talking about my addiction. I said yeah that’s one thing marriages break up over addiction. He said I’m breaking vows.

He said he’s not doing a thing and I can talk to a lawyer and do the work.

My kid…without my permission or direction..asked him if he will leave and let us have the house and put the house on the market. He said sure.

It’s been an exhausting day.

I have to follow through.