I'm not sure. My therapist has always made it clear that therapy eventually ends, and she has talked about some of the signs she looks out for, when considering spacing out sessions.

I've been in some major, major crisises, back to back in the past 8 months. Any fantasies I had in the past quickly evaporated, including when she legitimately got worried for my life, and wanted me to go in-patient.

I felt I'd be "imprisoned" and psych wards where I live are terrible. Acting out gets people punished and literally traumatised.

I really really want stability. I cannot afford more crises due to terrible circumstances. I don't at all like how my therapist is doing so much for me because of the prolonged struggles I'm facing. I don't want to be "special", it's not worth it.

My occupational therapist wanted me to go to a group home, and that suggestion was also really unwelcome. Even if I could afford it, and I can't, there's no clear benefit because my crisises isn't only mental health.

But that's me, and I've lived a life where I couldn't risk my trauma disorders becoming obvious.

I knew some people who seemed to "like" the attention and connection from repeated crisises: it was because appointments and inpatient was safer than their abusive family environment. They're trying to get needs met, when they had immense barriers to leaving their families.

Having said that, I know someone who actually does fake serious mental illness, and crisises (this is something offline that's been overwhelmingly proven and I still feel so very betrayed about it) in order to get care.

I suppose they'd use that pattern in therapy. Which would probably be their work in the first place: To get to the need behind close to 10 years of lying and faking. Because someone doing that obviously feels they lack care, there's a wound there.