Well, I don't even know why I posted this thread. I knew it would get repaired. I had a session with L today, and we're on our way to mending it all. I'm better understanding what's going on with her and she's helping me try to figure out what's going on with me. I was sensing something going on with her, but it wasn't me being in the way. Now as to why I got triggered, we're still trying to figure that out. She thinks it's a combination of just coming back from covid to settleing in, and then my fear got triggered because her changing times made me worry that things weren't stable. She also really believes that I'm reacting to her possible move. She said she's reacting to it too.

I wish I we could stop having these ruptures. They're either because of me getting triggered or being sensitive, or because of a misunderstanding. I don't know why she puts up with me as a long-term client.

I'm still scared of her. I know for sure right now it's because of the possible move. It's been brought to the forefront now. But at least I feel I can trust her again.

P.S. In case you were wondering, no the 15mins had nothing to do with a bathroom break. (Though my mind went there too at first).