Lately, I have been having a lot of trouble with the negative symptoms: lack of speech, lack of energy, lack of emotions, lack of motivation, etc. I almost get catatonic because of it. Someone said I sounded depressed. I don't know. I do have the depressed type of Schizoaffective. I don't feel depressed. I feel apathetic. But I also feel like I am coming apart at the seams a little bit. I'm not sure what else I can do. I feel like I am doing everything I know to do. But still unraveling. Sigh. So hard to keep up this fight.