Hi comrade. I can't really remember times I have been well though I am sure this is not so. I probably have been well sometimes I just can't remember them right now. I think the last time I felt human was when I was at my cousin's baby shower and my other cousin was there with her 3 month old. And I got to hold her a lot. It was precious times. It was also incredibly sad for me since I will probably never have children of my own but holding her made me feel like almost normal. This was a few months ago though. And she lives in AZ. So does my cousin that the baby shower was for. I live in CA.