I read the media influences eating disorders. I know I started to have legit issues after my top surgery. And I heard its common for trans men to develop eating disorders when their main source of dysphroia is their chest. Then when they get that taken care of they move onto other parts of themselves they see as flaws. I know once Elliot Page came out it kinda motivated me. He is 5'1 though and I'm 5'5 so he is going to be smaller then me no matter what. My therapist today told me my goal is ok but that I'd look a bit scrawny with my height. I don't know if she thinks I won't pass as well or what. She told me guys are supposed to be bigger then women. She talks so much in code because she trys not to offend me.