I had a good T session last night with Julieanne. I think she got more of where I was coming from. It's kind of hard when one is having some psychosis to explain to someone else what is going on, especially when one isn't too sure oneself! She told me I have been destabilizing this month (and Pdoc and I lowered one of the AP's this month--Latuda) so this morning I started the process to get a sooner appointment with him. It looks like mid July. So I can go back up on that medication. It feels like a defeat or a failure to me because I was trying to get off some medication but we didn't really discuss that too much last night. We did some reality testing and stuff like that. T was very nice and encouraging and also....realistic I think about some of my expectations that might not be realistic. So that was good. It was a good session. I wish they could all be that good!