I'm sorry *Beth* haven't been on lately because So much is going on here. Miguel's not doing well. It looks like we have to move to the NE. I'm wracking my brain to see how we can do this. I'm so overwhelmed that I missed my hud paperwork day. Haven't even started it. I don't know what we are doing. I hate this I'm so scattered. H is no help with paperwork. I can't seem to start anything. I found an apartment. Miguel will be moving back in. Everything is so ****ed up. I no longer feel safe as a family where we live for many different reasons. My teeth wont make it till next year if we don't move now. They're giving miguel a hard time about changing T's/pdocs. My family is stressing me out because they don't want me to move. My anxiety is really high. I feel like my life is exploding. Miguel's rent came in really high. So high H no longer wants to pay. I don't know how we're going to do everything. I have to shower and cut my hair before therapy tomorrow. I haven't brushed my hair in weeks and I can't even guess when the last time I showered is. Everything is just to much I don't even know where to start. this whole thing sucks. I'm trying to convince Miguel to go back to school until we get up there and he gets into PHP. We can't hospitalize him yet it takes days of planning and encouragement to get him out of the house. He wants us over every day. I went from planning on on breading and training dogs to needing a letter to keep my 12 year old dog. With everything I haven't been on. I want to be normal, I want off assistance, this is to much to take. I'm apparently eating less then normal. It's just all snowballing. And my house is a disaster.