The idea itself that I am a part of them ie genetically, scares me.One thing is for sure that growing up I told myself I would never behave like them.They come across as very kind and nice human beings to out siders,but are very cruel in reality or at least towards me.I come across as an aloof and cold person,as I was scared of people who were very impressed by my abusers ,pretty much everyone in the small town I grew up and I stayed away from all of them.But I know I am completely opposite of my abusers. I will be focussed on not tobe like them my entire life.