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Originally Posted by NP_Complete
Yesterday was the first in-person session in two weeks. We did have two phone sessions during this time period. There was also an unanswered email during this time period, but he did answer the one I sent when I was in the hospital. He made a comment yesterday about how we had made it through this time away. My initial reaction, although I didn't say it out loud, was WE didn't make it through ****, I made it through. I feel like actually telling him this would make me kind of a jerk because we did have two phone sessions, but this whole incident and the timing with his vacation and subsequent trip to his clinical site have triggered feelings of abandonment in me. I don't want to feel this way, but I do. Am I just an ungrateful asshole?
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You're definitely not an ungrateful asshole! I'd be bothered by the "we made it through" as well. I think my T has said things like that--well, more like *I* made it through, not *we*--or that I did well, and I'd be thinking to myself "Actually, it was quite a bit of a struggle."
Hugs, NP. Maybe you could tell him that the last two weeks triggered feelings of abandonment in you, even though you were able to talk a couple times and are grateful for that? And maybe include the part about how you don't want to feel this way but you do? Perhaps even your fears that you're an ungrateful asshole?