Today was better. The horror part of today was finding out my car needs a repair that costs so much I gasped. But at least I am getting it done before something bad happens. And as my mom pointed out, I've had this car for 11 years and aside from the obvius new tires this is the first expensive problem it has ever had. And it's a wear and tear issue. It's just getting old. It's just not great timing with medical bills from my surgery. But I'll work it out. So I don't feel as anxious about that as I could.

I even managed to go intot he chicken coop and top off their water. The chickens were sleepy but still moving around and that scared me but I did it. I also cleaned the pool filter without my mom on the phone to help if I found something dead in there. So progress. I feel much less anxious than yesterday. Tomorrow I need to get up in the morning long enough to call a garage that might do my repair cheaper. I should have asked my sister about that before I did anything. But I didn't and unless they have the parts in stock they probably can't help me with the holiday and my going home Wednesday morning. But I can ask. I think the other place may be trying to rip me off at least to some extent so we'll see what this place says.

I have clothes in the dryer now and then I'll fold them and get cuddled up in bed. I need to have a snack but am not very hungry. If I don't eat soon though I'll have to come downstairs in the night and their stairs are really steep and kinda scary when the meds kick in.

So glad to know I can manage to go into the coop without freaking out completely. I have to go back in there in a couple days to give them food. Now I have to convince myself I fastened it up tight as I heard coyotes the last 2 nights. I did but I put so much pressure on myself to do this perfectly. And I am far from perfect.