purple,

please do not despair ... nobody knows what tomorrow will bring.

your still have the future to make things happen - that includes your precious daughter.

take care of yourself ... stay our of harms way ... imagine a good future, with a positive lifestyle that you, yourself, have created for yourself and those you love.

it can happen. it will happen.

say positive things to yourself everytime you catch yourself longing for things that aren't around this moment - say things like, 'everyday, in everyway, i am getting better' -
or whatever you relate to - build your strength, you can do it - you are getting stronger already, just going through this very rough patch in life - someday you will look back and be thankful (i know it sounds crazy but, it's true)... you will make it and have your child with you when you are ready.

peace and love,
nightbird