sorry you are hurting too....
best thing is to hang with people who enjoy your company, and that doesn't have to include males, lol.
you willl find that person you are looking for when you least expect it - or so it goes.
don't put all your eggs in one basket, that is why you are watching it so closely.
you don't have to do anything special, as long as you are being yourself.
and anyone who is happy within themselves attracts others who are also happy - like a magnet!
hope you take some time this summer for yourself and making lots of friends - at your lucky age, it's not time for commitments, it's time to develop thru experiences, and not necessarily relationship experiences.
go get some bff's and have some real fun!
peace and love,
nightbird