Ok, so she practically did it again at dinner. I kept getting compliments from her on my looks - my dress, the color of my dress being complementary, my new tan, and how it complements me. But then she said something along the lines of "you should do tanning year-round.. it looks good on you". Which to me, implies that I look better with a tan than without, and that means that I should tan year-round so that I look better?!? The slew of commentary on my looks also made me feel like I was being closely critiqued and made me very uncomfortable. It also came across as extremely shallow on her part.
So what happens? My husband dropped me off at home while he took his mom back to her hotel. When he got back home to me, I imploded. I lost it and went off about how uncomfortable she made me feel. Then I announced that I will be spending very limited time from now on with he and his mother for the duration of her visit (another week). I also told him there is no way I could ever have her live with us. Basically, I lost it. I have no patience for this woman anymore, especially when my father just died, and especially when I am very stressed out and sad.
I think that my husband is now upset with me, which makes me the bad guy. He didn't seem too happy this morning when he left for work.
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
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