I had my bag packed last night at 7:30 thinking I could make the trip. I told my mom I'd go and just stay at the hotel. Then this morning I changed my mind. I don't even really feel all that bad. I was able to eat a muffin and half a cookie for breakfast. I just want to be at home in case a flare up happens. I guess I was still just concerned about my stomach and the long car ride. Plus most of my cousins wont even be there so its not like I'd be the only one not there. It was orginally a 22 people BBQ and now its going to be a lot smaller since people keep dropping out. I plan on just hanging out and eating vegetables which are easy on my stomach.

I ordered a few North Face hoodies on clearance that are size boys XL. I think they are ok as long as they don't stretch out too much. They are long but thats ok too. Clothes shopping is so frustrating in general for people but I find it really frustrating trying to find guys clothes that fit. What 29 year old man wears a size L in boys?

Update: Yeah a flare up or whatever is going on now. I'm glad I didn't go. My mom said its bad out there because of the holiday. Roads and stores are crowded etc. She picked me up 3 cases of caffeine free Coke though.

The cashier at the gas station handed me my bag full of soda this morning and said "here you go bud." I'm glad I'm passing but I wish I'd pass as somone who is actually my age instead of someone who is much younger. Often people think my mom is my grandma. Its just weird especially in therapy since we are the same age but she looks so much older. But just based on my body shape I have to wear clothes that fit and often they are brands marketed towards teenagers. So I don't know what to do sometimes.