I woke up early with my heart pounding and a migraine. Must have been some dream. I physically don’t feel well (migraine included) and that’s pulling down my mental status. My doctor wants me to take a COVID test (why?) and my family is nagging me to do it. I still have some symptoms after 21 days but it won’t show positive now. Okay. Just so glad I was on a strong antibiotic the whole time for something else. I think that really helped things not get worse than they did.

I googled counselors who specialize in grief and loss in my town. I contacted a few for call backs. I’m going to switch. Not only is my current therapist not helping me but she keeps making comments that my brother is no longer here because of the choices he made (and that’s a milder comment). It was his choice and responsibility. Not helpful at all to me.

I’m going to try to rally and be productive today while helping mom feel better. She’s doing poorly today as well. It will just take time I know. It helps checking in here. Tremendously.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.