If someone refuses to see you and speak to you, to continue bothering him is borderline harassment. The fact that you still want him around doesn’t mean you need to keep pursuing him. Your wish to be with him doesn’t trump his wish not to be with you. Imagine if the roles were reversed and a man continued demanding communication and friendship with you after you made it clear you don’t want it. I bet you’d feel harassed. Yes it is pushy.

I recall your posts from the past, you were never in his house besides dating for years. You don’t really know how sick they are. They both have incurable diseases that require 24/7 care for so many years, I am surprised they are still alive! You aren’t allowed to visit so who knows what’s really going on. I call it BS

Relationship 101: if he wanted, he would. Nothing stops a man from having a woman in his life. If he wanted, he would. He doesn’t. Time to move on