I feel pretty good today. Better then I have been feeling lately. I think its something I'm eating. I got through the night without too much of an issue although I did take one of my 2 extra valiums. My mom stopped at a couple stores we used to go all the time in our old state and picked me up some stuff I took for granted before we moved that I can't find anywhere around here. I did laundry and read a bit basically I just feel ok physically for once and I'm not too stressed about anything either today.

Update: my energy level has majorly dropped. I know I haven't been eating very well lately and since my mom hasn't been here these last 2 days I've really slacked since no one could bug me about food. I weighed myself a couple minutes ago and my weight isn't getting concerning but I am losing kinda fast now that my sleep has improved and I'm on that new med that causes me to lose my appetite.

I told my therapist about all this so she can tell whoever it is I'm meeting with. I was half asleep when I sent the email. I don't really care anymore if she switches me since she probably will throw me under the bus anyways. I just hope she isn't too pissed at me for emailing her in the first place and rambling about all this. She can get testy sometimes.

But I might as well be honest. I still think some of it is medical stuff though.

I don't know how I'm going to explain to my mom the lack of food I've eaten while she was gone...

She came home. Asked how the food was. I told her what I ate. She looked around a bit and probably saw all the unopened stuff on the counters but she didn't say anything. I don't think she looked in the fridge at the full tupperwear containers or in the garbage at the lack of wrappers. She did have a weird tone but shes probably just tired. She got me all my favorite candy and picked up my Mountain Dew from my uncle while she was gone.