Thanks for the supportive comments. I do feel like my T is missing many opportunities to examine what's going on with me. Sometimes I try to explain it myself, like saying at the end of today's session, I know he's not into talking about "parts." But it felt like in the second part of Friday's session, it was like my child part came out and was just desperate for some sort of reassurance and connection. I also used the term "frantic."

That to me seems like something to explore more with him, the triggers, what I'm experiencing when I feel that way, why it's difficult to control, and when it happens with other people, whether now or in the past. It's easier for me to talk about it as a child part, but he's said before he doesn't like using that sort of terminology, to just talk about what I'm feeling (or something like that).

You make a really good point on how it feels like I need to change my behavior. Should I be aware of how my behavior might affect others? Yes, and I know that's something he tries to focus on. However, it also doesn't mean that it should always be me who shifts my behavior or perspective. You're right that it's something I did at times with my parents and in other relationships. So it's not helpful if I'm just repeating that pattern with Dr. T--unless he can help me examine it, not for his own comfort/lack of being irritated/annoyed (which is what it feels like at times, including very recently), but to help me.