Not only do I not get to see her this week, and I really need to, but I'm jealous. She said she noticed the signs and decided to take a week off before she does something stupid. Why couldn't she do that on a week that I couldn't come? It's not fair!

What's really not fair is that I am so desperate for a little time off, and I can't take time off because I'm behind on everything because I can't finish stuff when I can't concentrate due to too much stress. And I'm behind on internship hours because of losing my clients when I thought I could push through the depression and keep going anyway (and stress, and not having enough time, etc.) And T knows I'm pressured with work and school demands, and she doesn't seem to think that I should be able to take time off.

But I hate being mad at her. She should at least allow email, but she won't, and I don't want to bother her when she needs a vacation, even though I need one too, and also need her. Oh yeah, and it's rainy this week too. That always makes everything worse. Even though it was warm yesterday and fairly warm today.