I really pushed myself today and went to a 4th of July parade. It was my first one since I was a kid. It was in pure Trump land. No one gave me any trouble though. No one really even paid any attention to me at all. Even when there was a large group of people of all ages just hanging around the main area of the town. I came home and took my second valium and heated up a bowl of broccoli and then ate some raw fennel with a bottle of Aqaufina. All my therapist cares about is my possible eating disorder. I have to do the anxiety stuff myself. But I feel like if I contiune to do these things my agoraphobia will get better. I also ordered a food allergy and wellness test today. I'm thinking its nuts but I may as well have a look to see if anything else is causing any problems. My sister and her family are coming back for a BBQ. My nephews were in the parade with the boy scouts thats why we went. So I guess today is a legit 4th for me for the first time in a couple years.