I was struggling last night emotionally for some reason. I was a bit heavy on the melatonin and I was a bit S. I don't know what triggered it or what my thoughts were excatly. Anyways this morning I feel a lot better. I plan on discussing this with my therapist tommorow. I am really thinking of going back to work soon but I do think I need to legally change my name and gender first so my mom and I are going to make some calls this week to start the process.

I got super valium resistant anxious and overwhelmed for basically no reason this afternoon. Then I checked the weather and heat index a couple minutes ago and I'm like yeah.... theres the answer... I need to go drink a Gatorade