Hi Soupe, it's indeed very encouraging to find someone who understands this situation and is able to express it so well. I need to re-check some of your message, for English is not my native language. My shrink is avoiding the matter I just exposed and plainly skipped it from his last mail - I'll insist, but thank you for your valuable input. I'm not even sure he keeps track of the dates of my crisis and I've only recorded the last 3. My parents are growing old and I'm an only son, so I guess from now on I must become more organized and not afraid of asking questions. My psychotic episodes may start while taking a cab or having some lunch at a restaurant... it's funny but turns into scary very quickly, though nobody realizes because I don't verbalize it. Should I? I don't even know how. Maybe a good psychologist would help. My psychiatrist is very good at prescribing the right meds at the right dosage, but fails considerably in the rest of areas that could make my illness more bearable, I hope you've found the right doc for you, Soupe, for it's indeed key to the whole business.

PRN (pro re nata)... does it mean that you carry some meds with you? I believe I should carry risperdal, but maybe my doc doesn't want to risk diagnosing an event that hasn't happened yet. Stay in hospital is hard and to me, most of the time, it looks like they're trying to stop a racing car with a wall of bricks...yep, that's my opinion. It has taken me 2 months to gather all the tiny bits and start being myself again.

As a curio, I'll tell you that the episodes I've recorded happened during a waxing moon, either around spring or summer, so no definite pattern, but that's all I got. It is very interesting to me the fact (and maybe you and others can comment on it) that my first psychosis were easily identifiable after getting stable: I could see my reasoning was wrong afterwards without effort, it was clear. Now they deal with matters that can't be quantifiable and follow a pretty recurrent and steady logic...though they can't be proven (religion, metaphysics, etc).


That's all I got. My doc thinks mutual support among bipolars is not for me, but I'm glad to be here and being able to receive such interesting replies.
May you be well, then. Kind regards from Spain.