So I have to realize...


That this particular reality is aware of itself (My mind). In most other realities, there would be a confusion (Such as when we are babies). The main node becomes aware, and then is allowed to manifest anything within the environment.


But we are in the 3rd dimension. So I'm excited to go into higher dimensions - Become God-like and travel where ever I want (Time travel, etc). I think time travel requires technology (Such as microchips), consciousness/light and drugs.


I just have a small hope-delusion that my consciousness will be uploaded to the CLOUD with Neuralink etc.. My main fear is that sociopaths will torture copies of myself but it could be worth it. I think that would bypass the having to die, become reincarnated randomly or go to hell etc.. We will go to hell or heaven randomly if our minds aren't connected with true religions, philosophies.


Although I would like to think that I will be with my family in the afterlife, in some sort of "heaven" - It'll probably be like that. But since I have schiz, things can be horrifying - Like my few second nightmare during a microsleep.. It was the most horrifying dream I've ever had - 1000x worse than the fear from psychosis.. It's possible.


We must make our own way - And suffering through doing hard things makes you appreciate life and... just to sensitize the pleasure, desensitize the pain.. We can't just sit around, doing nothing.. The brain needs cognitive stimulation.


And all of the things that I'm supposed to do.. Start a chemistry course, try and learn a new language (Such as Spanish.. before I vacation in Mexico this Fall).. I wish I could do it all..