I have an appointment next Tuesday with my moms laywer and a second lawyer so they can help me legally change my name and gender. With so much up in the air in the US I need to get this done as soon as possible. Plus theres some stuff I just wouldn't do in general right now. Like board a plane or cross the border or buy alchol until I change my name and get a new ID with my correct name and gender. Plus I want to do this. I always hated my very female dead name. I'm changing my middle name to Noah like from Noahs Ark and it also reminds me of my Grandma for a reason I can't quite place my finger on. I know she gave us a Noahs Ark magnet when I was little.

Therapy went ok today although I felt like I was acting weird. Or that she was. I couldn't help myself and word vomited and asked if she was pro life. She was all like "should I be a therapist right now and be proffesional and not go into this." But she ended up telling me she was pro choice and the country was ****ed up. We didn't really discuss much food stuff today. I guess because I was leading the session for once.

Anyways currently I'm trying to decide if I want to go out to lunch or if I want to take a long nap. I could use a giant burger since I got my weekly shot today and have the appetite for it or I could also use a 3 hour nap and then some soup later.

But basically I just felt like therapy made me feel weird.

Update: I got my weekly shot at 8 this morning so I was prepared and ok with having a teenage boy appetite. But my appetite has been ok all day. I didnt eat out for lunch I had the soup which was enough and then I'll try a homemade loose meat sandwhich for dinner. I dont know. Food is just weird to me now ever since I started that stomach med.

Second update: I got about an half hour nap. My therapist thinks my sleep is just related to my bipolar. I'm not saying shes wrong but then whats up with the high blood level