Hi PJ's, and welcome to the forum.

It is so hard for me to understand why people have kids---the very people who should never even be allowed near children at all. I am so sorry you and your siblings had to endure the mental and physical abuses and neglect that was such a big part of your childhood. Very sad and sorry.

It is a good thing you're sticking with therapy. It can help rebuild so much of what was missed in our early years. It can help make the rest of your life much easier for you. You stick with it as long as YOU need it---there are no hard and fast rules for "how long" someone should receive counselling and support. It takes as long as it takes.

Wishing you only good things...