IIf I find myself enjoying something, I take it away. I dont want people to see me happy. I do this, I believe because I feel like I do not deserve to be happy. For example: I go to a store and put a few things in the basket for myself (nothing much), but then I tell myself "you dont need that...you dont deserve that" and leave my shopping cart and walk out empty handed. However, I love buying things for others....that makes me happy. Can anyone else relate to this or am I just crazy? I am 39 yrs old and have a pretty good life (job, family, etc)