Thanks Waterbear. It wouldn't be so bad if T had responded to my text about it. Or my email which I also sent last night. I needed her to hear my feelings and while I think she has read them, I don't feel contained because there's no apology or even acknowledgement. T doesn't do 'therapy' over text/email, she will only send short replies, so I'm kind of not surprised, but I think she would have made an exception with this.

I believe she is genuinely busy right now but it hurts beyond belief that she can't make time for a short call. It's not something I ask for very often. This is the first time she has ever indicated that she can't and it has added a whole new layer of pain on top of everything else.

The first holiday is for two weeks, followed by another for a week. So I wanted to find out whether she's got time to see me in between before she goes again. With flights being the way they are, I'm not even sure she'll get back in time.

I feel utterly abandoned by her. She always does her best for me and maybe she has been too giving because now I've hit a boundary and I can't cope with it.

I do think she can't cope with my anger and it's part of it. She was VERY defensive in her message.