Quote:
Originally Posted by Lonelyinmyheart
Thanks Lonesome. I could -and with hindsight I should have simply done that. But I guess the emotional part of me overrode everything and all I could think about was how I hadn't mattered enough for her to ensure she'd tell me something as important as a second holiday. I know that's unfair on her though because T does care very deeply and I know that for sure. I wanted her to really hear my distress about it though. The other issue is she is not the most organised of people. She won't even set a session in stone for her return - her approach is to text me when she's back and arrange something, which causes me anxiety. But the flights in UK are being cancelled left right and centre so there's no guarantees even if T said she'd be back in time. She indicated she's only back for a few days in between, but I don't know for sure. Her jet lag will be intense too.
There's still two more sessions before her holiday so I will see her to talk about it. But I honestly feel unable to sit with it until next Wednesday and now with her saying she can't make time for a call I'm freaking about that too. I think she is upset with me for being angry with her.
|
Oh, I completely understand reaching out to her, as I struggle to sit with things as well. And I get feeling like you don't matter enough. But I imagine she thought she'd told you and hadn't. It does seem like she should be able to make time for a brief call before Wednesday though. Or at the very least to say she could try. Or that she'd let you know if there was an opening in her schedule for an earlier session (like if someone canceled).
That's really frustrating, too, that she won't schedule something for when she's back. I can understand her not wanting to schedule something and having to cancel though, if the flights are such a mess.
I do wonder if you're right that she's upset because you're angry with her. As I feel similar things have happened before with my T. She should be accepting of your anger though, or at the very least not be punishing you for it, if that's what's going on with not giving you a call. Or maybe she knows she messed up in not telling you about the second holiday and doesn't want to deal with addressing that with you? Either way, those are her things, not yours, though of course they're impacting you. It's also entirely possible her schedule is completely booked up and it has nothing to do with you though.
I hope you hear something else back from her.