Thank you Una. I totally understand what you're saying and I can see how much T HAS been here for me. We actually had this conversation once when she didn't respond to me asking for a call because I was in crisis. She didn't pick up my text until the morning because she was asleep early evening due to feeling unwell and she said if she'd seen my text of course she would have called me. I told her not to feel bad as I knew she was always there for me and that one time didn't mean anything.

It's ironic she has refused a call now though....

I guess I can see past everything. It's just hard because she hasn't responded to my desperate need for her to acknowledge my hurt about the holiday and then she became defensive about my need for a session/call. It's less about the holiday itself now and more about the emotional issues around it.

I just want everything to be okay between us. I think she is upset with me.