I texted my T:
"Anxiety! Anxiety! Anxiety!"
Okay, so I didn't really give her much to go on. I need to work on asking for what I need. Only, I don't know what I need. For her to wave her magic wand and take the anxiety away!
She responded,'
"No!!!!!! Ok. Anxiety."
Not sure how that is remotely helpful.
I already took anxiety medication this morning but it barely made a dent. I did some breathing techniques which helped mildly. I ended up taking half of an Olanzapine. I am supposed to be taking Lybalvi but you can't cut those in half! And one whole one is way too strong! Olanzapine is part of what makes up Lybalvi and I had some left over so I took half of an Olanzapine. In my fax to my pdoc when I sent him my symptoms, I asked to go back on Olanzapine, because I can cut it in half. Lybalvi makes me pass out for 12-14 hours and sleep, and that is no kind of quality of life. Plus it seems to stick around in my system and make me feel out of it. I cannot tolerate that medicine. I hope the Olanzapine does the trick. The good thing is that I got an alert on my phone that said that the Calmigo was delivered to my house. So I can try that out tonight!