Lonely, I just want to say that I think it is SO brave of you to even tell your T your thoughts and feelings about her going away, and how it affects you. I just sent my T an email tonight telling her I was really sad when she told me she'd be away next week. It was so shame-inducing.

I don't want to go on about me, but I admire your courage.

I also understand the want to distance yourself emotionally from her. I am so sorry you are going through some awful stuff right now.