I feel like I'm just spiraling into anxiety and paranoia and I don't know what the cause of it is. My anxiety was tough all day. I took all my mornings meds as I should. Then of course I was really hungry. But I just wanted the anxiety gone so I didn't care. I turned on Top Model all day. The anxiety just didn't go away though. My mom stopped at Sams Club to do some shopping and she got me a hot dog and a piece of pizza because you know, med hunger. That was at 11 and then I realized I didn't take my stomach med so I took that and my hunger faded. I haven't eaten since and I don't plan to. But my sister decided to bring my nephews over for the afternoon and I guess I should be understanding but they have been screaming and being wild nonstop since noon. I think everyone wants the next one to be a girl. I just seem to be super stressed out about this name and gender change thing and my phone is going slow and I don't know why and its like whenever I think rationally I'm ok about things but overall I just seem to be a mess for no reason. I'm not having any symptoms so I don't think it would be the hematrcrit. But being up half the night at age 29 worrying so much when a doctor has told you your at a higher risk for a heart attack or a stroke isnt very healthy I don't think.