So my mom says that it's OK for me to even just stare at a wall - And be interested by my own thoughts. Most people need filler, relationship, etc.

I said.. My parents didn't talk to me much as a kid - And I realize that it was cuz I always wanted to be alone and never talk to anyone so it was difficult.

Good decisions, more awareness I have.. And that I feel uncomfortable with too much praise but also, appreciate criticism.. - She said that she treads carefully on criticizing me though because I stay alone again and completely dwell on it. But it helps me grow so I'm OK with that.