I am 52.... and I am not ashamed of my eating disorder... it is an illness... a true illness... so I am not going to be ashamed.. I have had it really since I was 13... put it has terrible in last 6-7 years...

and.. I had a child... though I ate correctly.. while pregnant..

though you are right.. since I have been doing this for years.. it has caught up with me.. and has caused me some damage...

so... I guess I would stop being ashamed.. and just use that energy.. to get better... it is an illness...