I know you've got good reasons for that sadly and I really feel for you. Losing faith in a therapist/therapy is an awful thing

While my T is flaky and works too hard and makes mistakes and can't deal with my anger, I've never had any doubt that she's genuine and wouldn't intentionally hurt me. She had her own major stuff going on two years ago and she consistently kept seeing me even though her life had gone to hell. I still don't know how she managed it given the circumstances. She does a lot for me that means so much and our connection is strong. I know she's not a bad person or bad therapist and many of our issues are simply because she is disorganised and forgets to tell me things and takes too much on. It's hard as I'm a type A and like to know where I'm at with everything, I need things to be rock solid, and T so isn't like that. But her heart is in the right place for sure.