Sending you lots of hugs darling. So sorry to hear you're going through all this.

We have a responsibility to ourselves, to actually take care of ourselves and keep our cups full. I've come to realize self love isn't a buzz word, it needs to be an essential component of our lives.

I hope you are able to take small steps each day to get your spirit back to feeling good again. Professional help to talk through what you're experiencing is always a good idea.. and sometimes we do need to get away to help us gain clarity and to reset.

I do not know what's the situation with your husband and why you don't want to leave your son with him, but summer's coming, wondering if it's not possible to enroll your son in a camp? Something that would be a great experience for him. Or ask him whether there is something he would like to do this summer, like see or spend time with another family member and plan both of your trips to run simultaneously, so you're gone at the same time. Or, if he's old enough, you two go along on a trip together and have him occupy himself somehow with activities that he enjoys. (Just some thoughts I thought I'd share incase they could be useful, don't know how feasible it is for you).

Regarding your job, is there a reason you're still committed to that company? Nothing wrong with planning up an exit strategy and taking the steps day by day/ week by week/ month by month to transition to more fulfilling opportunities.

Do not despair, dear. Hugs! 🤗