A few weeks ago I got a feeling that I should leave my partner. I love her. She’s amazing. I feel like I’m mean to her sometimes. And I get annoyed so quickly with people I’m closest to. She doesn’t deserve that. I don’t know if it’s us that is causing me to be mean, or if it’s something else.
I’m mad because when I talked to my best friend a bout it, she said I was making a mistake, and it seemed impulsive. My mom told me the same thing. How dare they tell me what to feel??

I know I’m not in an episode. I love my ex, everyone tells me she was perfect for me - and I think maybe she was…. But I’ve already made her move out. And I’ve already ended things. She was so confused and hurt when i ended things & kept saying it was out of the blue. To me, I feel like I thought about it. I thought about it for 36 hours and then told her I wasn’t sure I could do this.

My family thinks I’m manic. I don’t think I am. I’m fine. I think I’d know if I was manic. Right?!

I don’t know what to do. I feel like no one is on my side. No one understands. Everyone is on my ex’s side. Everyone questions WHY I did it - but it’s none of their business!!!!!!!

Maybe I ruined everything? I feel great though. There wasn’t anything horrible about the relationship except I was mean sometimes and I didn’t like that about myself. My ex says I was hard on myself & wasnt that mean. But I know I was. I didn’t like it.

What do you think?