I feel like being nasty. I already manufactured an argument with my partner (twice) this evening, but I can't fully let loose nasty with her because she has such a soft little face. And grey hair. Who can break the heart of a woman with grey hair, for heaven's sake?! I hate being like this. The desire to be nasty is such a strong impulse, it feels animalistic. I guess this is a product of my upbringing, but God I want to feel that emotional surge of knowing that I have hurt whilst remaining detached myself, detached momentarily at least.