Well, the appointment was different than planned. It wasn't a joint phone call. My pdoc decided during the appointment to change me to a different NP, one closer to me. We said goodbye and it felt like nothing. Anticlimactic. I'm not sad even though I feel the loss. Loss of someone I trusted. And then the NP called and I had to break it to her that she wasn't going to be the NP I would see. That was awkward.

I guess I feel numb? Maybe? I don't know. It sucks because I don't want to get to know or trust someone else. But I didn't really like my pdoc anyways. She was too happy...to the point of idiocy. But she knew her meds, so I trusted her. I hope this new NP doesn't change my meds. If she does, I'll have a fit!