Ok, calmed down from yesterday, I just get things spinning pretty fast in the brain and get stressed out.

So for more of a detail and not a venting of frustration or cry for help.

So this girl is great because we get along really well, and she is pretty, so that helps. She knows about me and my dark secrets, and yet is still around me. I get along great with her mom and dad. I guess that is where it is nice being best friends, but that's part of the thing I don't want to do anything to ruin that great friendship. Although she has mentioned to me before "Why don't we just date?" and I couldn't say anything, and that made her feel a little embarrassed.

Its not that I am opposed to having a girlfriend, its just been so long about 5 years, and having all these people label me. All the people labeling me isn't a multitude of people, just people who I consider to be friends. Well I guess if they are true friends they would understand. I just don't like people talking behind my back like "he can't make up his mind on what he wants" or just not taking me seriously.