I got an interview with the school district I live in for a paraprofessional. I assume I would likely be with a student who has more of an intellectual disability or autism than purely behavior, and I would be in an inclusion class or self contained, again, not for pure behavior. Less likely to be fights, serious disrespect, and triggering situations. But we’ll see. I’m going to go to the interview with an open mind but I’m not going to make any commitments just yet.

Thing is I’m just not sure I can work full time right now. I honestly would like to do a couple of more years in education just because I think my son is too immature to be trusted at home alone for a half day, much less a full day. If I’m on the same schedule as him I’ll be home when he is. If I don’t get this job or think I can’t do full time work then my plan is to substitute teach for a year. That way I only have to work when I feel up to it.

My paranoia is much less today. My anxiety is not gone but also less. I’m trying not to do the “what-ifs”. In regards to CR, we saw his surgeon today for a post op checkup and he’s doing well. I’m still very nervous off and on, not just about him but in general. But I’m more confident I’ll be ok.