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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots
I ****ING HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to die so badly. I can't do anything right. I just wander around the city hoping I get shot or hit by a car or something but I just really uncomfortable right now and I can't stand it I'm ugly crying and I called the crisis line and they're just like "well why don't you listen to music and write" so I went home and tried it but I can't stand noise my neighbors are playing music and I want to do violent things to them. And writing. I suck at writing. I have no ounce of creativity in me anymore and no craft either so why bother if it's just going to upset me more.
I ****ing hate my dad. I just want to get high and escape these feelings.
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I hate it when there is unwanted noise from neighbours on top of everything else. There has been some noisy building work near here lately. Makes me so angry! (I guess I already was angry). I get it about wanting to die.
And feeling ugly.
I stay in and isolate rather than wandering around outside hoping I get hit or something. I wish I had some benzos and could sleep!