Hi Neverever86, it sounds like you're going through a really difficult time. The pain of not having a boyfriend can be oh so real. It is loneliness and depression, combined with societal pressure. I hope you know there's nothing wrong with you for being single. Lots of people are single and not by choice. I'm sure you'll meet someone else eventually. I wonder if what you might want to do right now though, is focus on feeling better. Distracting yourself from the pain of being rejected by this guy, and your loneliness, and do something enjoyable instead. Do you have any hobbies? Do you have any friends who feel good to be around? What makes you happy? And if you don't know, is there a way you can discover / uncover that, so to speak? I wish you the very best. It will get better.