@*Beth*

I agree. There’s a difference between rough anxiety and blatant paranoia. Today I spent six hours in a panic no matter what I did. I finally calmed down around 3:30pm. Then RS came home and I couldn’t lie to him bc if I do he gets upset (rightfully). He’s very upset anyway. He’s afraid I’m going to go IP again. Hell, I’m afraid I’m going to go IP again if the damn dr won’t give me haldol.

I went back out with RS out of necessity, that was 6:30 and I’m still panicking. It’s 9pm. Even Xanax is not working. I will definitely be taking extra seroquel and I can only hope it works because I don’t even feel safe enough to sit in the living room by myself.