|
Jul 14, 2022, 02:03 AM
|
 |
|
|
Member Since: Jan 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 26,579
|
|
Quote:
Originally Posted by *Beth*
It was a lovely summer day today and now we have a breeze that comes from the ocean. The feeling is so nice. Full moon in Capricorn...teaching, lessons, learning, discipline, responsibility. An intense configuration.
I had a wonderful skating session this afternoon! I'm realizing that I'm going to need to invest in more "serious" skates, higher quality, etc. so I can properly adjust the trucks and maneuver more easily and safely. The thing is to come up with the money. And my high school reunion is coming up in September, which is $50 per person - plus the gas to drive there. And the clothes. Still don't know if I'll make that.
So. Mary is back at work and my appointment with her is at 2 p.m. tomorrow. She's been out for 4 months. And there's a mega-ton of major stuff to go over. I wrote in more detail in my psychotherapy board thread, so I won't get into the specifics here, too.
I will say that I'm very anxious about the upcoming session and the anxiety has triggered off a degree of paranoia. It started with casting spells, witchery, who has power and who doesn't, then I noticed the little demons hanging around. And of course, the paranoia extends out to the world, in general. Neighbors. Silly stuff that, of course, feels very real.
I am going to take one of my beautiful little voodoo dolls with me to the session tomorrow. He has black yarn hair, longer on one side, wears a white dress with tiny exquisite detail, and has a red felt heart on a pin stuck into his heart place. He gives me a sense of safety and protection.
I'm also considering taking an extra Klonopin - or 2. I would end up short, but if I do I will tell my med dude that I accidentally threw the bottle away. It's actually been many years since I've done such a thing, but once in a great while I find it necessary. I do not want to be sleepy, but feeling calmer and a tiny bit buzzed could be to my advantage - unless I'm feeling strong and confident. I'll have to see how it's going tomorrow; I won't decide now.
Great bouquets of gorgeously scented flowers and a cupcake, your choice of flavor, for you
|
I wish you well with your appointment. I’m thinking of you and sending supportive vibes.
|